the boys.

If your wondering where my nkotb talk is I didn't add any words of wisdom on that yet. Ill be working on it sooon though.

as you can see ive just figured out I can put pictures in the blog. So I apologize if I go crazy for a abit. The walls are gonna end blue or a greenish blue I see that now. I  keep picking pictures of that color.

fligh of the stairs that could be.

Ive always envisioned a very romantic house with blowing curtains and Im thinking that those eggs in a bowl at our house would just get tipped over or eaten by the dog. How to keep those pictures so eloquently in place. So I think Ill just dream about color schemes and stairs for now on. Yes I think the blowing curtains is from a meatloaf set of music videos. Ive let the curtains blow around it just isn't the same.

So these are more the style perhaps Im thinking. Although hubby wasnt keen on the blue stairs. Think robins egg honey. Well I get paid next week from babysitting so he doesn't know it but I plan to get the stairs ready and low and behold painted. Well see what happens. :) I been sayin that for a while. Any ways when In doubt dream big thats my theory. Thats what I been doing for years.

I really like this stairwell. Right now and for about 10 years we've tried to come up with a plan of redoing our stairs. Well do you think we can agree on anything. Not exactly.  For the moment were motionless due to  money. The stairs are sanded and ready for whatever comes next. lol Funny yes. My sister in law used similar blue soft paint so Im tryin to stay away from that soft serene blue. Ok so I like it. Maybe a soft green.? the blue is very relaxing to me.Moving on so the spindles Ive kept plain wondering if I should paint them as well. We will get there I know that. So for now I look at them every single time I walk up the stairs.:)

Life comes full circle in a week. One out one in.

My great aunt passed away 2 nights ago. SH ewas always an older person even when i was young . Grey hair. thick italian accent. Had to do double takes to listen to what she was saying. Her house was impeccable. Clean as a whistle so to speak. I remember walkin into her house and it had a warmth to it. A smell of cookies and pasta. There was always fresh cookies. SOme tasty some you would bite them and just chew and try to enjoy it. She was cheery and always wanted to pinch your face.
Not sure how to act at funerals. THey are so formal. We go wednesday for the showing. I was weepy yesterday and I can't imagine if it was my own mother. I know its gods way. But its not any easier. I will put on a brave face and be there for my dad. Its his aunt. Funny we just had a birth in our family so it really is a matter of one leaving and one starting fresh. Life is truly amazing. And memories of her life are amazing.

Precious

Its funny how we think we have it so bad. I just watched precious. I know its a story a movie. But im sure its a true story. The words may have been different. Different names. But its happened. I became a mother like most ppl with no manual. Im trying my best to give my kids the love and support they need. I think we all say ill never do it like my mother . BUt you do. Its in your blood. Im very grateful right at this moment for them. They are silly bundles of joy who are constantly pushing boundaries. Always learning. Always curious. Why  mommy. whats that. So many questions.And above all. Precious.

sunny 70's days

Im honestly feeling like a lost puppy some days. My kids like to get away to the neighbors and ride their bikes. Something i have to get used to for sure. So Im thinkin of ideas for halloween and getting my interests back. Its quite amazing. Its like getting your life back, not that I don't love my children because they mean everything to me. But now is the time for me again. I will get them ready make sure they have school supplies and the new school clothes. And i get some time to find out who I am again. Whether its takin photos which i love. School. Which im not overly overjoyed about. And work. Its money. Regardless if I don't wanna be there.

Cleaning and kids..

So usually the day ends with hubby coming home and he says. the house is a mess... Whatt I spent all day cleaning it. Ok who says I didn't buy the how to organize books and magazine for the year I have indeed. I wonder how other ppl actually get through the organizing with lovely little kids. The Videos now stay in their spot, I rearranged them today and the kids keep their hands off it for the most part. I buy the funky baskets in various funky styles and color. Its all good for a couple minutes then the kids come through and empty the baskets. I am about 10 minutes behind them, usually and when i get to the baskets they are rearrangin the bathroom shelving. It doesn't end but at the end of the day. They are sleeping and peaceful. Then is starts up the next day.

colors to pick .. what colors should i pick

So i been lookin at the shades of the living room color and its really buggin me. You'd think i would know what colors to pick as Im lookin for a relaxed and comfortable look. I just cannot decide. I think its the lack of new patterns to work with. The couch is very dreary. The couches were from my mother in law and they were dreamy and flowery. The flowers are turnin a dingy brown due to cats and dogs and whatever else. Sand.  So Thats my 1st dilamma. The 2nd would be the lack of funds to purchase these extra patterns and couches.So i feell stuck. Im gonna use the cloth i got through kijiji theres a mix and match of colours. So the fall cleanup is starting. The house will be closed up soon enough. Im having my own purge of stuff. We have so much clutter its crazy. So thats today.

sour grapes and wildflowers

My head hurts. I don't know what im thinking. I always thought I would have something to say. Here I am and I don't know what to say. Today my kids played with the neighbors next door. Its funny how so much laughter comes  from a home with kids. They giggle bout saying the word poo. Yes its a kids world in this house.  I spent today in bed. Normally i don't get to nap however I think it was the grapes from the day before that stopped me dead in my tracks. So now I am pretty awake. Welcome to thiswildflowers world. Here is a place for comfort. For chocolate. all my favourite things I want to talk about.